Melancholy...

Tears falling..and emotion suddenly ran high. I quickly turned off the radio...thought it would help but i cried my eyes out. Im not sure on wut actually triggered my feeling, was it the song ('Missing you' by Brandy) played on the radio or the call that i received from my mom or perhaps both that makes me burst into tears.

I lost a sister 7 years ago...and it was painful. When i got a call from my mom saying that my abah is not feeling well, i was really really down..although my abah was just having a bad cough.. suddenly i felt like its all coming back again..u know...the feeling of not wanting to let go of the person that u love...i was driving and crying like a baby along my way back home...fortunately i made it home, safe and sound.

I opened up my notebook and share my utterly sorrow feeling with my girls on Yahoo Messanger.Ive made them cry when each and every one of us shared our own heart-rending stories, Hana cried everytime she went back to KL after seeing her parents..fear of the losing feeling.Qme lost her father at the age of 3. I cant imagine how tragic her life is but I guessed that explained where Qme gets all the strength tht has made her very successful in life.

Yeah..Reality bites.Im taking a deep breath and i know..i have to move on.